Wednesday, September 21, 2011

The Answer I Need to Reveal!

Thank you to the anonymous person who asked me a very important question about my journey.  I should be a little more detailed about every aspect. 

When dealing with my mental and emotional issues, I have to be patient with myself.  I know that being stressed about situations (such as the scale not moving when I need it to, financial issues - if they come up or craving the company of a man) I can't go running to the refrigerator.  I handle my challenges in a way that I never have before.  I actually DO something!  I've actually become one of those people who use exercise to relieve stress - but not just any exercise.  I box!  I LOVE boxing!  And I'm such a girlie girl so it's really hard for my family to comprehend that Crissy boxes!  It's something about putting those gloves on a getting in front of a bag and relieving my stress onto this bag!  I punch, kick and sometimes scream depending on the force I use.

I also journal.  I try to write several times a week about what's going on in my head.  Most of the things I write about gets to be repetitive because I'm so focused on getting this weight off!  I write a lot about what I'd like to be doing, what I will be doing, how I'm handling my physical hurts, finding the courage to continue on and knowing that all of this is going to pay off!  I also try to meditate.  This also may sound a little crazy, but to get my mind off of getting something to eat, I watch the Food Network!  It actually calms my cravings! 

I am a virgin by choice.  I used to think that no man wanted to be with me - no relationship, nothing.  I thought they just wanted to be my friend (I used to always hear the saying that men and women can't be friends w/out benefits - Huh! Call me!  I can vouch!!!)!  I now understand that it wasn't about them not asking me out or wanting to be with me, it was about me and me not appreciating my body and who I am as an individual.  I hated my big behind, fat ankles and big droopy breasts.  I thought if I didn't like all of that, what man would?!  Now, I appreciate EVERY part of my body - fat ankles and all (they are disappearing though - Lol!)  I am loving me now and I know that I need to treat myself like I love me.  When the right man comes my way, he may have to carry a sign to flash in front of my face that he's interested, but at least I'll know how I want, need and deserved to be treated! 

I realize that God has blessed me with the strength to take better care of myself!  I was given a warning with the diagnoses of my pre-diabetes.  It was a MAJOR wake-up call.  I said that I refuse to live on this earth taking tons of pills or shots for the rest of my life when I know that I can do something about it!  I AM PHYSICALLY CAPABLE!!!!  Now, it's not my pre-diabetes anymore, it's going outta here!  I want nothing to do with it!  I also realize that I can do my two loves now - be in front of the camera and speak to those all over the globe about loving yourself more, appreciating what you have and keeping a very strong heart and body which will help you keep a very strong and healthy mind!  It really is important for your own sake.

I hope I was able to answer your question Anonymous.  I'll continue to share my ups and downs, highs and lows on this blog.  I appreciate you and thank you for your support!


  1. Imho, you look great. Period. John has spoken!

    Then again, I'm a Pisces; I've privileged insight...

    Anyhoo, nothing wrong with you at all--not by a long shot. What matters is what YOU think; at the end of the day, you end up with yourself, no matter what the relationship status is.

    Email me if you want--you've sensitivity and depth; kaka on anybody who cannot see that!

    John (Debbie's brother)

    Crystal looks great. Roma locuta est, causa finita est. "Rome has spoken, case closed."

    1. Hi John! Thank you so very much for the compliment! This has been a long road and still traveling! Your words of encouragement mean a lot! Hope all is well!